Journal – The Beginning

/ Sameera

When I started this blog, I wanted to get rid of all the memories the old had. Of course there were good ones too, but with depression one thing leads to the another ending up in an apocalypse inside my head. I often wonder what made me strong to handle those circumstances because imagining them now can give me a good panic attack. ‘Good panic attack’, such a vague term. Anyway let’s focus on better things like this post. It’s a good one I assure you.


As I say, goodbyes are not endings but rather milestones for new beginnings. With this new blog I will share many things. Beginning with a book I finished reading yesterday(I will write about that soon). My reading was greatly affected due to prolonged anxiety and inferior complexity issues. Every time I read a book or even a poem on social media platforms, I envied all the attention those writers were getting. I do not think my art is the best, but it is surely deserved better comments. I realized things on social media do not work on the basis of quality of art but rather on how much flattery one can do to invite readers. Comment for a comment like tit for tat, but a good version. To add to the burden, there are people who write daily and  my mind went insane that the person can write and think so much without blocking their brains. I mean how is it even possible to write without taking necessary breaks. Things are fast on social media, if you are able to grab attention for a longer time you are valued, if not you are thrown out of the circle. It surely makes you feel lonely.

As of now, I have come to terms with the fact that art does not need more likes to be good. Likes do not matter. As vague the statement may sound, art does not need validation as a donation. I may sound rude, but I have had enough of those dramas where I need to pretend to be the harbinger of hope and heal the world. That’s toxic even if does not sound in the beginning. Leaving all that behind I am in a good space now, atleast art wise. (Say Mashallah because my mother told that saying this can keep things from catching an evil eye,it’s like touchwood, although more closely related to the religion I choose to follow).

I won’t go further into this today. I think I will write some new things everyday without worrying about the fact that whether it makes sense or not. So in this new category that I am introducing in my blog titled as “Journal” I am trying to be a little more consistent with writing. Also, it’s a long break as of now. The world is turning scary but I can see a hope. The stars are brighter than ever, much like my childhood. We are going to survive this and if we do not, our words will.

Stay home. Eat well. Be more kind.

Sameera

Bougainvilla, an year old.

26 thoughts on “Journal – The Beginning”

  1. I just found this Sameers. I love it. I love your honesty. Don’t let anyone put you off. Be yourself. Be honest. And shit to the naysayers. I have had them too. Glad I found your Journal. Love you friend ❤️

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  2. Sameera you are a gifted writer I love reading your posts and I always wonder how exquisite your mind would be for creating such beauty. And reading this post unburdened me somehow as I’m never able to write consistently.
    Lots of prayers and well wishes your way and Ramadan Mubarak ❤️

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  3. Mashallah! You’re right. Art doesn’t need validation as donation. The hunger for likes had consumed me in 2018. In 2019, I had the block. Now I have removed the link from all my social media accounts. Because I realized I don’t need likes but a safe haven where I could be myself without caring about how I am perceived.
    All the best!

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  4. your writing which well represents the way you think, lacks a sense of wisdom within it. this world has a lot to offer. explore. and just look after yourself.

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  5. Yaar lekin koi donate nahi karta h.
    One thing I want to say or add just avoid overthinking. And stay away from social media. Personally speaking the more you think the more it messes up with your brain. The best exercise one can do it filling the heart and mind with the rememberance of Allah swt and prayers.
    It’s really simple , 2 rakat to anything happy or sad, good or bad , it’s the way to God , it’s a Way to establish healthy relationship with Allah swt.

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  8. The time I read this, it was like you stole a part of me that only I knew.
    I used to think i take too much breaks as the writers i surround come up with something new daily. So taking breaks is actually good but not too long as mine.
    Thank you for this.
    And actually Stay home Stay safe

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    • I don’t know how writers come with new things daily but most of them are literature students so I understand that when you are into a subject as a part of professional, it becomes more valuable. As for me, I write as a passion and not as a profession so taking breaks or getting a break unfortunately is obvious. Adding to this there have been writers who have written less but the quality of their words surpasses the quantity. In a long term no reader would read the monotonous words again and again. Creativity can be inhanced and for that one needs to take a break. It can be a long break as long as it doesn’t start to hurt.

      You can write daily even when you are blocked. Write anything and everything you come across. Social media wants you to post everyday and that is why when you can’t write it starts to hurt. But if you remove the social media pressure you can write everyday without posting. This can help you. 🙂

      Thank you for joining in. Happy stay.
      Stay home.

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